Well it's been awhile. There's been a lot of interesting things happening. Most of them aren't the kinds of things that the internet world is really interested in knowing, but they're filling up my head.
You know that creepy icy feeling in the pit of your stomach that arrives with adrenaline? Yeah well that's almost all I've felt for the past few days. Sometimes adrenaline feels great but not when its constant.... and makes you want to pass out and barf. Not too cool.
I really don't know how all of this is gonna work out.
Do you ever feel paranoid, scared, claustrophobic, etc all at the same time? Do you question your own motives? Do you worry that you don't actually know what you want? Do you want one thing at one time and something completely opposite the next second? None of these things are great, but none of them are even tolerable in relationships. Just in case you weren't aware of that. You'd think, being you, that you would know what you want. But it's like there are two sides to people and one part of you doesn't agree with the other part of you...
This makes NO sense....
Oh well!
I think it's time to retreat back into my shell. Things don't seem to go too well when i poke my head out.
I happen to enjoy my peaceful quiet.
hm.
If you read this, I'm impressed. If you understood it, woah... hero status! haha
I feel like writing a song... I think I shall.
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