WARNING TO THE SENSITIVE.
**BEWARE**
This will be personal and extremely honest. So if you don't want to hear what I have to say, don't read this.
And another thing. I will try extremely hard to keep this G but if there is an occasional profanity, I'm sorry.
I'm so. entirely. sick. and fed up. with being
JUDGED.
Get a life.
If you're really running that low on things to do that you need to nit-pick and find small little things to whine and complain about, things that don't involve you, things that you have no business sticking your snotty little nose into, then go to Walmart and buy some class, go out and get a life, and leave me the heck alone.
I will not give up an opportunity that comes my way to be happy, to feel worth something, to be someone, to be appreciated, to do something that I think is beneficial and worthwhile, just to spare some feelings. If this was truly detrimental to someone's salvation or life or whatever, that's completely different.
But shocker.
This has nothing to do with salvation,
nothing to do with life or death,
nothing to do with other people in general.
Don't come whining to me if you get your finger bit by sticking it into a dog's cage where it doesn't belong.
For those of you that know me, I care about people.
When I love, I love hard, and I love deep.
So when I do offend someone, I feel terrible.
There comes a point, however, when sometimes you just need to do what's best for you. You can't always live your life stepping around feelings, sacrificing every chance you have to be happy, JUST so you don't make someone mad. Guess what, unless you kick their grandma in the face or something, they'll most likely get over it.
I'm not saying to not be sensitive. You have to be careful how you handle things. But you can't force yourself into a situation that's horrible for you and uncomfortable and miserable just to make someone else feel good! Yeah, if it will save their life, you can deal with crawling around in some mud for a while but if it's just to make sure they're not offended by something.... There is a point where you need to live for you.
I'm sick of having people tell me who to talk to and who not to talk to
who to hang around and who not to hang around
who to date or more accurately, who not to date.
Unless you're God, you have no control over me. (Well ok parents kinda do too...)
And if you don't like what I'm doing, whining and complaining about it to 20 other people doesn't solve jack. If you have a problem with me or with what I'm doing or how I'm doing it, say it to my FACE. Last time I checked I'm a big girl and I can take it. Otherwise, acting like an elementary student and whining to all your classmates about someone won't solve problems,
won't do anything for you,
and certainly doesn't make you look cool.
You look like the sniveling gossip that you are.
I'm a big girl. And like I said, I can handle all of the crap you dish out. But that's not to say it isn't annoying as ****. (I'm trying to be nice.) That's not to say it doesn't hurt.
Especially when your best friends turn on you.
Oh my bad, sorry, I'll just go make myself miserable to spare your feelings.
..... LOL JK
There is a HUGE difference between being hurt and actively trying to hurt me and get back at me. What did I do wrong again? Choose to be with someone who makes me happy? Uhhh.... Yeah I'll get right on fixing that. Not.
Hurt?
I can understand that, and I truly am SO sorry......
But bitter, aggressive, rude, snotty, back-stabbing, gossiping, actively trying to hurt me?
Yeah you lost my sympathy right there.
Well are you happy? You're the reason there are wet spots on my pillow.
You're the reason for my scars.
You're the reason I don't trust.
You're the reason I have walls.
You're the reason I don't let anyone in.
You're the reason for my lack of faith in humanity.
You're the reason I shut you out.
Are you happy now?
Did that satisfy your thirst for revenge on my happiness?
Well....
Guess it probably just grinds your gears that I'm still happy huh....
Haha well that sucks.
You don't want to be involved? Gladly. This was never about you to begin with.
You're done? When were you involved?
You're going to judge? Since when have you know ANY details?
You're going to hate? Since when were you perfect?
I'm sorry that you have nothing better to do with your life than sit around pretending to be of the utmost importance and judge other people.
I guess you'll be stuck in highschool mode forever.
But as for me, I've moved on.
I'm over high school.
I'm over your drama.
And most of all.
I'm over you.
Daughtry--Over You.
"Now I never saw it comin
Shoulda started runnin
A long long time ago
Never thought I'd doubt you
Better off without you
More than you, more than you know
Slowly gettin closure
Guess it's really over
I'm finally gettin better
Now I'm pickin up the pieces
From spendin' all of these years
putting my heart back together
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you."
.... Ironic. I'm performing this song at the talent show this Friday.... haha
Come watch!! :D Me, Devin, Grant (Grantuous/Grantonimly), Adam, Caleb. Yeeeeuh!
Anyway.
Sigh.***
Writing things out... yeah that felt good.
K well I've got other fun things to do so I'll seeya later kiddies.
Love, rainbows, happiness, unicorns, <3, mushyfeelingstuffetc....bla bla bla.
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