Well I promised I'd write about something happy and cute and mushy and gross like that... I guess I can write about the book I'm reading? I've read it before and its definitely interesting. For sure. Red Tulips apparently mean: Declaration of Love and this guy always gives her red tulips. More like he makes them magically appear... it's awesome.. trust me there's a TON more to the story than that... but I think that's my favorite part. :) she thinks they're just an attention device but she finds out later.. hee :)
K was that cute and mush and gross enough? I hope so. I'm most definitely not in the cute mood right now. I feel more... blunt, grumpy, dark. I dunno. :)
I always laugh when people who treat you poorly act so surprised to learn that you're upset about it, or when you decided the heck with that and don't talk to them. "whaaaat?? wait i thought i was soo important!" haha no. not if you're gonna be like that hon... sorry.
sigh....
babysitting tonight with christy! fun!!
coming home to be chewed out tomorrow morning.....
not so fun....
those "discussions" usually end up in me getting lectured and not believed and usually end up making me feel like a horrible, unlovable person. So that'll be a great start to my day :)
woot.
Well off to babysit kiddies and a dog and 2 rats! wooooot :)
I'm excited :)
Friday, January 27, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
New Blog! About time.
Well the past few days/ weeks have been.... interesting to say the least...
I'm not exactly impressed with guys right now. They're not so super duper. At least not all. Shout out to Josh, though, for making my day today (which was weird because he's usually a punk haha). Yes. Random hugs really are enough to make my day.
I'm scared to graduate. I'm soo ready to be rid of all the annoying high school drama. But I'm going to miss the people. I've spent time, energy, blood, sweat, and tears with these people and have invested so much of myself into them it's hard to even see who I am without them.
But yeah high school drama is getting really old. I just want to live a nice peaceful life. :( (im so old.)
So if that's ok with you, take your drama elsewhere and leave me out of it. I have no interest in pretending I'm still in seventh grade. :)
And here's another thing: if you say you're going to be there for someone... (this might be a long shot for some of you) try actually being there! Shocker... Sticking around is the least you can do.
I really need a job. And part-time jobs are fantastic. But the thing is... with looking for a job and thesis and work and etc etc etc... I really don't have any time for part time people so people should hurry up and make their decisions. You're with me or you're not, don't waste my time with "maybe" "later" or "sometimes".
Another thing: venting and gossip. Lets get this straight. There is a time to vent and unload stress. But keep it within people that you trust because having yours (and probably someone else's crap) spread all over the place isn't going to help anyone.
And last. Don't lie to me. The worst thing about being lied to is knowing that you weren't worth the truth. And I usually find out soo... Don't risk it... :)
Well that's about it for now. Sorry it was a little grumpy and rant-ish... buuuut you don't have to like it.. haha
I promise next time I'll write about something happy and cute and mushy and icky like that.
Later children! :)
<3
I'm not exactly impressed with guys right now. They're not so super duper. At least not all. Shout out to Josh, though, for making my day today (which was weird because he's usually a punk haha). Yes. Random hugs really are enough to make my day.
I'm scared to graduate. I'm soo ready to be rid of all the annoying high school drama. But I'm going to miss the people. I've spent time, energy, blood, sweat, and tears with these people and have invested so much of myself into them it's hard to even see who I am without them.
But yeah high school drama is getting really old. I just want to live a nice peaceful life. :( (im so old.)
So if that's ok with you, take your drama elsewhere and leave me out of it. I have no interest in pretending I'm still in seventh grade. :)
And here's another thing: if you say you're going to be there for someone... (this might be a long shot for some of you) try actually being there! Shocker... Sticking around is the least you can do.
I really need a job. And part-time jobs are fantastic. But the thing is... with looking for a job and thesis and work and etc etc etc... I really don't have any time for part time people so people should hurry up and make their decisions. You're with me or you're not, don't waste my time with "maybe" "later" or "sometimes".
Another thing: venting and gossip. Lets get this straight. There is a time to vent and unload stress. But keep it within people that you trust because having yours (and probably someone else's crap) spread all over the place isn't going to help anyone.
And last. Don't lie to me. The worst thing about being lied to is knowing that you weren't worth the truth. And I usually find out soo... Don't risk it... :)
Well that's about it for now. Sorry it was a little grumpy and rant-ish... buuuut you don't have to like it.. haha
I promise next time I'll write about something happy and cute and mushy and icky like that.
Later children! :)
<3
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Big Brothers
So last night created some interesting discussion. Natalie, Ben, Ian, Meghan, Lauren, Zach and I all stayed and got deep after everyone left Natalie's party. We discussed dating; our definitions, when it's ok to date, when it's better not to, how to handle it, yadayada.. It was really insightful and I pretty much agree with most everything everybody said. Fun night:) I love hearing the words of wisdom from the people in my class. Even if I feel inferior sometimes. Haha.
So I was going to hit off of that but I'm a little tired out of the dating topic and pretty much said all I thought about it last night sooo maybe later.
What's been in my head today is actually big brothers.
Guys, I know that you're going to have fights and disagreements with your sisters sometimes. I know, first hand, that girls can be really annoying sometimes. I get annoyed with myself for being girly sometimes, k? I get it. :)
But you may not realize what a huge impact you have on their lives. They look up to you for what to expect in a guy, for advice, for protection, for an example. They may act like they don't like you, don't value your opinion. They may pretend they don't care what you think of them. But believe me, they care. You have a power so unlike anyone else in their lives. Big brothers are supposed to be the ones a girl can go to when no one else will listen, when she doesn't know what to do, when she's scared and hurting. Some little sisters may not come to you but they watch you. And some day they will grow up and realize what an influence you had on their lives. Never underestimate your influence, your power. They say you can compliment a girl and she may disagree or blow it off but if you insult her, those words will hurt her and haunt her and she will remember them forever. And that's pretty much true. She may not let on but if you tell her she looks pretty, it means the world. If you tell her she's annoying or whatever, it cuts her deeply and hurts your relationship.
I'm not saying you can never be open and honest with how you feel but be gentle with her, guys. She's not perfect and even if she pretends to be the Queen of Shiba, she knows she's messed up, she knows she's made mistakes, she gets it. Every girl should be treated with respect and love. There are many that don't deserve it but we all know that we deserve to die and yet, here we are. We have been shown grace, and we should show grace to others.
*pause* SISTERS:
That includes you. You need to show respect for your big brothers; they are an authority figure in your lives. Especially if they are in tune with what God has to say and they are Christ-focused they are your superior (whether you like it or not...).
Guys are supposed to be MEN. And they are told that they are to have no emotion, be big be bold be proud. Bla bla bla. But you can hurt them. They're not some impenetrable fortress with no emotion and no feelings. They conceal them a lot and put on a brave face but they are human too. Love your big brothers, girls. There are a million girls on the planet who would kill to have an older brother looking out for them. And for the girls who don't have a good relationship with their older brothers: I am very sorry.
Back to the guys:
It's easy to get so involved in other things that you don't have time for your family, or just don't want to take the time. But it means the world if you try. Sometimes girls act indifferent or snobby but if you make an effort to spend time with them or go out of your way to say something nice, it stews in their minds and they'll think about that for a long time and eventually it may soften them.
And I'm a realist. Actually more often a pessimist. So I'm very aware that relationships are broken all around the world. Some brothers hate their sisters and ignore them, hurt them, etc. Some sisters antagonize their brothers and beat them down. But every relationship is worth working for. Even if nothing comes of it for years, siblings have an unbreakable bond that no one else can truly understand. It's between you and your sibling. But it's worth fighting for.
So that's my rant for the day. :)
<3
So I was going to hit off of that but I'm a little tired out of the dating topic and pretty much said all I thought about it last night sooo maybe later.
What's been in my head today is actually big brothers.
Guys, I know that you're going to have fights and disagreements with your sisters sometimes. I know, first hand, that girls can be really annoying sometimes. I get annoyed with myself for being girly sometimes, k? I get it. :)
But you may not realize what a huge impact you have on their lives. They look up to you for what to expect in a guy, for advice, for protection, for an example. They may act like they don't like you, don't value your opinion. They may pretend they don't care what you think of them. But believe me, they care. You have a power so unlike anyone else in their lives. Big brothers are supposed to be the ones a girl can go to when no one else will listen, when she doesn't know what to do, when she's scared and hurting. Some little sisters may not come to you but they watch you. And some day they will grow up and realize what an influence you had on their lives. Never underestimate your influence, your power. They say you can compliment a girl and she may disagree or blow it off but if you insult her, those words will hurt her and haunt her and she will remember them forever. And that's pretty much true. She may not let on but if you tell her she looks pretty, it means the world. If you tell her she's annoying or whatever, it cuts her deeply and hurts your relationship.
I'm not saying you can never be open and honest with how you feel but be gentle with her, guys. She's not perfect and even if she pretends to be the Queen of Shiba, she knows she's messed up, she knows she's made mistakes, she gets it. Every girl should be treated with respect and love. There are many that don't deserve it but we all know that we deserve to die and yet, here we are. We have been shown grace, and we should show grace to others.
*pause* SISTERS:
That includes you. You need to show respect for your big brothers; they are an authority figure in your lives. Especially if they are in tune with what God has to say and they are Christ-focused they are your superior (whether you like it or not...).
Guys are supposed to be MEN. And they are told that they are to have no emotion, be big be bold be proud. Bla bla bla. But you can hurt them. They're not some impenetrable fortress with no emotion and no feelings. They conceal them a lot and put on a brave face but they are human too. Love your big brothers, girls. There are a million girls on the planet who would kill to have an older brother looking out for them. And for the girls who don't have a good relationship with their older brothers: I am very sorry.
Back to the guys:
It's easy to get so involved in other things that you don't have time for your family, or just don't want to take the time. But it means the world if you try. Sometimes girls act indifferent or snobby but if you make an effort to spend time with them or go out of your way to say something nice, it stews in their minds and they'll think about that for a long time and eventually it may soften them.
And I'm a realist. Actually more often a pessimist. So I'm very aware that relationships are broken all around the world. Some brothers hate their sisters and ignore them, hurt them, etc. Some sisters antagonize their brothers and beat them down. But every relationship is worth working for. Even if nothing comes of it for years, siblings have an unbreakable bond that no one else can truly understand. It's between you and your sibling. But it's worth fighting for.
So that's my rant for the day. :)
<3
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Well that was pleasant...
Ben was totally right. It feels weird not blogging every day.. I was gonna two days ago but I was gone nerding it up on Lord of the Rings with mah buddies :) And then yesterday I ended up going to the HCA games. WHICH we totally owned. So yes.
Monday: All day movie marathon. Get home and parents take my phone because I forgot to do something over the weekend. :( at least it was only for the night and the next day so now i'm ok haha
Tuesday: boring, non eventful, meh. I was craving my phone. haha games were aaaamazing.
Which brings us to today.
Boring.. But yearbook party was legit. Suuuper funny. We had discussions about cuddle buddies ;) And poor little Aaron turned a bright pretty shade of pink.
And other than that I'm not really in the mood for writing a ton... I'm kindof in the mood to be a bum.
I really wish I had an accent... I can do Auzzie pretty well but if I start thinking about it too much I start to switch back and forth between Australian and British... which is a problemm.
But even still. Auzzie= faaaantastic. Someday I'm marrying an Auzzie boy. HEECK to the yes.
aaanyway.
Senior thesis procrastination.... probably not a good idea..
I don't even have my expert yet...
stress level = through the roof.
Preeetty positive I'm going to have a heart attack. :)
whoopie.
Well ta-ta kiddos :)
Monday: All day movie marathon. Get home and parents take my phone because I forgot to do something over the weekend. :( at least it was only for the night and the next day so now i'm ok haha
Tuesday: boring, non eventful, meh. I was craving my phone. haha games were aaaamazing.
Which brings us to today.
Boring.. But yearbook party was legit. Suuuper funny. We had discussions about cuddle buddies ;) And poor little Aaron turned a bright pretty shade of pink.
And other than that I'm not really in the mood for writing a ton... I'm kindof in the mood to be a bum.
I really wish I had an accent... I can do Auzzie pretty well but if I start thinking about it too much I start to switch back and forth between Australian and British... which is a problemm.
But even still. Auzzie= faaaantastic. Someday I'm marrying an Auzzie boy. HEECK to the yes.
aaanyway.
Senior thesis procrastination.... probably not a good idea..
I don't even have my expert yet...
stress level = through the roof.
Preeetty positive I'm going to have a heart attack. :)
whoopie.
Well ta-ta kiddos :)
Sunday, January 8, 2012
The Bookworm Shrivles...
So I'm a bookworm. Hardcore. Over this break (somewhere around 3 weeks) I finished a novel that I was halfway through...
And read 5 more.... :)
2 of which were read in a single day each.
Not that I'm bragging about my nerdiness... :)
SO anyway.
I read one today. And it was pretty fascinating! It's about this young girl who grows up seeing faeries and all the horrible things they do to each other and to other, unknowing humans. Most humans can't see them... her and her grandmother can. And fey are very dangerous.
So she avoids them and acts like she can't see them.
But the Summer King and the Winter Girl (paathetic name...)
start following her and she doesn't understand why but basically she fins out:
There's a creepy Winter Queen. She's the mother of the Summer King. She killed the original Summer King (the father of her son). She discovered she had a son and put a clamp on his powers until he finds a Summer Queen. Only one problem: She's constantly working against him to make sure he doesn't find her. He's searched for over 900 years and each one he thinks might be his queen must go through The Test. She must raise the scepter of the Winter Queen. If she's the Summer Queen she will not be harmed. If she's not... she's screwed and frozen to become the Winter Girl until the next mortal girl decides she loves Keenan (the summer king) enough to risk it. If she refuses she becomes a Summer Girl. (Summed up quickly they're like the blonde ditzes we all get so irritated with. They live for fun and pleasure, no thoughts of their own, only serving Keenan.) And if the girls refuse him all together, since being "chosen" turns them into a Summer Fey, to refuse him and ignore him and leave, means death.
So Ash (the girl) is basically screwed :)
Her boyfriend isn't too thrilled either but he tries his best to help her...
All in all the storyline was definitely unique and intriguing.
But
BEWARE. I'M GOING TO SPOIL THE ENDING SO HOPEFULLY NONE OF YOU ARE GOING TO READ THE BOOK. (ESPECIALLY SINCE MOST OF Y'ALL ARE GUYS... I'D BE WORRIED... WRITING IN CAPS IS FUN:) )
She accepts her roll as Summer Queen, they kill the stupid creepy annoying Winter Queen and she's replaced with someone good. The Winter Girl whom Keenan is still in love with.
Keenan is adorable to Ash but nooo she's stuck on her stupid boyfriend (who's actually adorable but... Keenan is so much cooler!!!)
SO THEY END UP SEPARATE!! they're "friends" ruling an entire other world??? WHAT COMPLETE AND UTTER CRAP.
I'm very very irritated at wasting an entire Sunday reading this amazing book to find out the ending is trash. TRASH.
So very anticlimactic and UNromantic :(
Sigh....
**NOTE TO SELF: Listen to Natalie when she says you'll probably hate the ending of a book. She's usually very very right.**
Ugh.... :( :( :(
Well anyway.....
I've ranted. I've raged. I've whined. I'm good now :)
Tomorrow is gonner be so fun!!! Movie marathon ALLL day long with some of the bestest people on the stinkin' PLANET. :)
WOOT!
Oh and byy the way I accidentally died but then Caleb saved me with his magic so no need to worry :) Just so y'all know :)
Ta-ta kiddies :)
<3
And read 5 more.... :)
2 of which were read in a single day each.
Not that I'm bragging about my nerdiness... :)
SO anyway.
I read one today. And it was pretty fascinating! It's about this young girl who grows up seeing faeries and all the horrible things they do to each other and to other, unknowing humans. Most humans can't see them... her and her grandmother can. And fey are very dangerous.
So she avoids them and acts like she can't see them.
But the Summer King and the Winter Girl (paathetic name...)
start following her and she doesn't understand why but basically she fins out:
There's a creepy Winter Queen. She's the mother of the Summer King. She killed the original Summer King (the father of her son). She discovered she had a son and put a clamp on his powers until he finds a Summer Queen. Only one problem: She's constantly working against him to make sure he doesn't find her. He's searched for over 900 years and each one he thinks might be his queen must go through The Test. She must raise the scepter of the Winter Queen. If she's the Summer Queen she will not be harmed. If she's not... she's screwed and frozen to become the Winter Girl until the next mortal girl decides she loves Keenan (the summer king) enough to risk it. If she refuses she becomes a Summer Girl. (Summed up quickly they're like the blonde ditzes we all get so irritated with. They live for fun and pleasure, no thoughts of their own, only serving Keenan.) And if the girls refuse him all together, since being "chosen" turns them into a Summer Fey, to refuse him and ignore him and leave, means death.
So Ash (the girl) is basically screwed :)
Her boyfriend isn't too thrilled either but he tries his best to help her...
All in all the storyline was definitely unique and intriguing.
But
BEWARE. I'M GOING TO SPOIL THE ENDING SO HOPEFULLY NONE OF YOU ARE GOING TO READ THE BOOK. (ESPECIALLY SINCE MOST OF Y'ALL ARE GUYS... I'D BE WORRIED... WRITING IN CAPS IS FUN:) )
She accepts her roll as Summer Queen, they kill the stupid creepy annoying Winter Queen and she's replaced with someone good. The Winter Girl whom Keenan is still in love with.
Keenan is adorable to Ash but nooo she's stuck on her stupid boyfriend (who's actually adorable but... Keenan is so much cooler!!!)
SO THEY END UP SEPARATE!! they're "friends" ruling an entire other world??? WHAT COMPLETE AND UTTER CRAP.
I'm very very irritated at wasting an entire Sunday reading this amazing book to find out the ending is trash. TRASH.
So very anticlimactic and UNromantic :(
Sigh....
**NOTE TO SELF: Listen to Natalie when she says you'll probably hate the ending of a book. She's usually very very right.**
Ugh.... :( :( :(
Well anyway.....
I've ranted. I've raged. I've whined. I'm good now :)
Tomorrow is gonner be so fun!!! Movie marathon ALLL day long with some of the bestest people on the stinkin' PLANET. :)
WOOT!
Oh and byy the way I accidentally died but then Caleb saved me with his magic so no need to worry :) Just so y'all know :)
Ta-ta kiddies :)
<3
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Polar Bears
Well I was completely unsure of what to blog on today so I requested the assistance of my bestbuddy Caleb. When he said to blog about polar bears my first thought was FACEPALM.
BUT then my mind started swimming with all of the wonderful things to rag on about polar bears.
Everyone thinks they're so cute and cuddly and adorable and we need to save them and bla bla BLA. Wellllllll let me explain some-ting to ju.
Polar bears are vicious. They are not the cute little fluffy things you imagine petting and riding on. Or like that dumb movie The Compass or whatever. You don't ride them! They'll bite your face off the moment they can!
Out of all bears the polar bear is the most fierce and dangerous.
And then there's all this crap about global warming killing polar bears ...
:'( boo hoo hoo.
If they're stupid enough to get stuck on a little ice cube instead of going inland with the rest of the ice, then it's lack of evolution that's killing them. IF global warming were even real... WHICH IT'S NOT. If the earth is getting warmer someone needs to inform my toes because they're CONSTANTLY freezing. And try feeding the global warming crap to Alaskans. They'll laugh in your face before dumping you in the snow outside their window. Global warming my butt.
But if its not global warming, PETA will think of some other cause for the "dissappearance" of polar bears... (whatever).
You know what I think it is?
All the Coca-Cola they apparently drink/
That stuff can't possibly be good for animals can it??
I think we should steal it back.
Although.... just on the shot that MAYBE global warming is killing them and taking their homes... we really shouldn't be working so hard to stop it because when the ice melts, the bottles of deliciousness fall into the ocean and eventually make their way to the shores of Africa and refresh the poor orphans!
gasp!!
PETA's attempts at saving the polar bears and stopping global warming isn't for the bears! It's to save the Coca-Cola for themselves!! I knew I didn't like them...
Welp.
We know where the bears are going...
PETA is secretly killing them for their Cola and eating them...
Yikes!
People for the Eating of Tasty Animals....
So true...
hm... who knew a rant about fuzzy fluffballs could unlock an international scheme!! :O
on a side note....
MY POPCORN IS AMAZZZZING.
not that I'm bragging....
I'm sleepy... and I'm in the middle of a crisis...
There's nothin' like dealin' with creepers! woot.
Ta-ta sillies!
And thanks to Caleb for helping to uncover the Polar bear murder ring! Call the President!!!
BUT then my mind started swimming with all of the wonderful things to rag on about polar bears.
Everyone thinks they're so cute and cuddly and adorable and we need to save them and bla bla BLA. Wellllllll let me explain some-ting to ju.
Polar bears are vicious. They are not the cute little fluffy things you imagine petting and riding on. Or like that dumb movie The Compass or whatever. You don't ride them! They'll bite your face off the moment they can!
Out of all bears the polar bear is the most fierce and dangerous.
And then there's all this crap about global warming killing polar bears ...
:'( boo hoo hoo.
If they're stupid enough to get stuck on a little ice cube instead of going inland with the rest of the ice, then it's lack of evolution that's killing them. IF global warming were even real... WHICH IT'S NOT. If the earth is getting warmer someone needs to inform my toes because they're CONSTANTLY freezing. And try feeding the global warming crap to Alaskans. They'll laugh in your face before dumping you in the snow outside their window. Global warming my butt.
But if its not global warming, PETA will think of some other cause for the "dissappearance" of polar bears... (whatever).
You know what I think it is?
All the Coca-Cola they apparently drink/
That stuff can't possibly be good for animals can it??
I think we should steal it back.
Although.... just on the shot that MAYBE global warming is killing them and taking their homes... we really shouldn't be working so hard to stop it because when the ice melts, the bottles of deliciousness fall into the ocean and eventually make their way to the shores of Africa and refresh the poor orphans!
gasp!!
PETA's attempts at saving the polar bears and stopping global warming isn't for the bears! It's to save the Coca-Cola for themselves!! I knew I didn't like them...
Welp.
We know where the bears are going...
PETA is secretly killing them for their Cola and eating them...
Yikes!
People for the Eating of Tasty Animals....
So true...
hm... who knew a rant about fuzzy fluffballs could unlock an international scheme!! :O
on a side note....
MY POPCORN IS AMAZZZZING.
not that I'm bragging....
I'm sleepy... and I'm in the middle of a crisis...
There's nothin' like dealin' with creepers! woot.
Ta-ta sillies!
And thanks to Caleb for helping to uncover the Polar bear murder ring! Call the President!!!
Haters will.... help?
I think we can all agree that haters are a pain in the butt and probably deserve to have a yardstick shoved where the sun don't shine.
But it's weird. I'm not sure why but during my random wonderings of today, I came across a thought that was shocking to my senses. Haters are actually good for something! Oh my lanta call the press.
There are some things in life for which you simply posses drive, passion, zeal, etc. And that's great! Pursue them! But sometimes even the things we love can seem droll, pointless, aggravating, like you've hit the wall, it's the end of the road. You know. But even with these feelings, sometimes it just takes one, mentally dense person to question this once-passion for the intensity and love to instantly flare up again and motivate you to continue in pursuit of your dream. And even while still clinging onto your love for said object, grumpy words of the Negative Nelly in your life just fire you up all the more.
I never realized haters or pessimists actually could provide motivation and spirit to my goals. But they have. When anyone questions my passion and love for music, my plans to pursue it until there is nowhere farther to pursue it, I become fired up and protective; determined to prove them wrong; that I can do what I set out to do; that I can be good enough.
Weird...
Anyway :)
I should be sleeping but I have important things to accomplish! Like reading my teen drama book. (I have a feeling she gets the prince in this one too ;) ) and I have ice cream that is in dire need of being devoured. So until whenever sillies! :)
<3
But it's weird. I'm not sure why but during my random wonderings of today, I came across a thought that was shocking to my senses. Haters are actually good for something! Oh my lanta call the press.
There are some things in life for which you simply posses drive, passion, zeal, etc. And that's great! Pursue them! But sometimes even the things we love can seem droll, pointless, aggravating, like you've hit the wall, it's the end of the road. You know. But even with these feelings, sometimes it just takes one, mentally dense person to question this once-passion for the intensity and love to instantly flare up again and motivate you to continue in pursuit of your dream. And even while still clinging onto your love for said object, grumpy words of the Negative Nelly in your life just fire you up all the more.
I never realized haters or pessimists actually could provide motivation and spirit to my goals. But they have. When anyone questions my passion and love for music, my plans to pursue it until there is nowhere farther to pursue it, I become fired up and protective; determined to prove them wrong; that I can do what I set out to do; that I can be good enough.
Weird...
Anyway :)
I should be sleeping but I have important things to accomplish! Like reading my teen drama book. (I have a feeling she gets the prince in this one too ;) ) and I have ice cream that is in dire need of being devoured. So until whenever sillies! :)
<3
Friday, January 6, 2012
Update:
Horses usually scare me. I'm pretty bold so I suck it up and march on but Midnight, Caleb's horse, is now officially my favorite animal on the planet. :) (of course... I have a dog so that's probably temporary but....yeah)
He's sleek and black with a white star on his forehead. Black Beauty, Arabian Nights (knights?)
He belongs in a movie.
He's so proud too. The way he holds his head high and prances around with his tail in the air like he's the Prince of Persia himself. Have you seen the movie Spirit? Yeah he's Spirit, only in black.
He's all they said he was; proud, impulsive, does his own thing and doesn't listen very well, a little bit antsy and hyper.
With a slight nervousness around horses you'd think he'd be the one to scare me or worry me.
NOPE.
Maybe our personalities are just so alike, (headstrong and determined to have our own way,) we got on quite well.
I think I'm going to steal him.. :)
And ride away on the beach into the sunset. When I find a beach. And a sunset that's good enough.
It's gonna happen.
Anyway.
I need a job....
One that actually has hours....
I like my job now but I have bills to pay and I can't pay them if there aren't enough hours for me to work...
Meh.
I'm quite thrilled for Monday. All day movie marathon of all three Lord of the Rings movies (extended editions!). HECK. YES.
I'm a total nerd for those movies :)
And yes, I can quote most of them. :)
And with our whole class invited... there's absolutely no way this can be boring.
So basically these last few days until school, (otherwise known as self-imposed torture,) are going to rock. :)
Well kids. Anyone looking for an Audi TT?? Hit me up! Got one for sale! :)
And now its time to go blow stuff up. CoD has missed me.
Lataa!
He's sleek and black with a white star on his forehead. Black Beauty, Arabian Nights (knights?)
He belongs in a movie.
He's so proud too. The way he holds his head high and prances around with his tail in the air like he's the Prince of Persia himself. Have you seen the movie Spirit? Yeah he's Spirit, only in black.
He's all they said he was; proud, impulsive, does his own thing and doesn't listen very well, a little bit antsy and hyper.
With a slight nervousness around horses you'd think he'd be the one to scare me or worry me.
NOPE.
Maybe our personalities are just so alike, (headstrong and determined to have our own way,) we got on quite well.
I think I'm going to steal him.. :)
And ride away on the beach into the sunset. When I find a beach. And a sunset that's good enough.
It's gonna happen.
Anyway.
I need a job....
One that actually has hours....
I like my job now but I have bills to pay and I can't pay them if there aren't enough hours for me to work...
Meh.
I'm quite thrilled for Monday. All day movie marathon of all three Lord of the Rings movies (extended editions!). HECK. YES.
I'm a total nerd for those movies :)
And yes, I can quote most of them. :)
And with our whole class invited... there's absolutely no way this can be boring.
So basically these last few days until school, (otherwise known as self-imposed torture,) are going to rock. :)
Well kids. Anyone looking for an Audi TT?? Hit me up! Got one for sale! :)
And now its time to go blow stuff up. CoD has missed me.
Lataa!
Hmm
So I'm usually tired by 1 am...
Not last night.
I went to bed at 4.
And what do you know. I forgot to write my mother an insurance check so she wakes me up at 6:45 am. -.- I'm surprised I was actually coherent enough to write her check.
I went back to bed for a few hours
Technically I slept as long as I would on a school night so I shouldn't be this tired but I supposed I spoiled my body with lots of sleep over break. Going back to school should be fun...not.
On the bright side, however, I'm going horseback riding today! My buddy/ fiancée (its a joke, don't freak out...) has two horses and we (I) decided that as my late birthday present he's taking me riding. Selfish? Maybe... Worth it? Definitely :)
AND I have to go look for jobs today... yeaaaaah....
Well I don't want to scare the horses looking like the Grim Reaper so I'm off.
Bya kiddies! <3
Not last night.
I went to bed at 4.
And what do you know. I forgot to write my mother an insurance check so she wakes me up at 6:45 am. -.- I'm surprised I was actually coherent enough to write her check.
I went back to bed for a few hours
Technically I slept as long as I would on a school night so I shouldn't be this tired but I supposed I spoiled my body with lots of sleep over break. Going back to school should be fun...not.
On the bright side, however, I'm going horseback riding today! My buddy/ fiancée (its a joke, don't freak out...) has two horses and we (I) decided that as my late birthday present he's taking me riding. Selfish? Maybe... Worth it? Definitely :)
AND I have to go look for jobs today... yeaaaaah....
Well I don't want to scare the horses looking like the Grim Reaper so I'm off.
Bya kiddies! <3
Thursday, January 5, 2012
"Fairytales" My Song
"Once upon a time"
that's how the stories start
sadly none are true
lying has become an art
We tell our little girls
to expect that someday soon
their lives will fall together
with a magic prince and honeymoon
But they'll spend those years just waitin'
as waiting turns to tears
they begin to see all those lies
in the stories from all those years
Chorus:
Well wake up honey
you're in the real world now
no pumpkin coach waiting
no magic prince or ball gown
No one calls you "princess"
you're treated like the slave
and though you have the cruel stepmother
no prince is comin' your way
So you learn to toughen up
to face the world alone
no Prince Charming to the rescue
it's just you, you're on your own
What's the point to fairytales
if all they are is lies?
why even dare to dream
just to watch hope die?
Might as well just
toughen up now
before you're disappointed
before reality lets you down
Straighten up little soldier
Cinderella's gone
you're all grown up now
and you're expected to move on
What, did you believe them
when they said how beautiful you are?
are they really seeing you
or the makeup covering your scars?
chorus
You might be beautiful
but no one ever sees
because fake lips and makeup
are all the world believes
See and in the fairytales
the nice girl gets the prince
but this is reality, sweetheart
being nice don't make a difference
chorus
that's how the stories start
sadly none are true
lying has become an art
We tell our little girls
to expect that someday soon
their lives will fall together
with a magic prince and honeymoon
But they'll spend those years just waitin'
as waiting turns to tears
they begin to see all those lies
in the stories from all those years
Chorus:
Well wake up honey
you're in the real world now
no pumpkin coach waiting
no magic prince or ball gown
No one calls you "princess"
you're treated like the slave
and though you have the cruel stepmother
no prince is comin' your way
So you learn to toughen up
to face the world alone
no Prince Charming to the rescue
it's just you, you're on your own
What's the point to fairytales
if all they are is lies?
why even dare to dream
just to watch hope die?
Might as well just
toughen up now
before you're disappointed
before reality lets you down
Straighten up little soldier
Cinderella's gone
you're all grown up now
and you're expected to move on
What, did you believe them
when they said how beautiful you are?
are they really seeing you
or the makeup covering your scars?
chorus
You might be beautiful
but no one ever sees
because fake lips and makeup
are all the world believes
See and in the fairytales
the nice girl gets the prince
but this is reality, sweetheart
being nice don't make a difference
chorus
Blogging....
Truth be told, I've never even thought about blogging before. I always considered it a little nerdy and not really my style. But I decided that I love to write, I'm pretty honest about my opinions and I'm easily bored so this could be interesting. Why not.
So I think my first blog-rant is going to have to be takin' a dig at society and all the princess-y crap it feeds girls today. Every little girl grows up reading princess stories, watching princess movies, being told that "If you only follow your heart," your life will turn out absolutely perfect, you'll eventually capture the heart of your Prince Charming and you'll never have to worry your pretty little head ever again. Beauty is what the world revolves around. Ironically, society is obsessed with "natural beauties" but no one appreciates natural beauty! Even the photos of models who are supposed to look "natural" are smothered in makeup, slow roasted with anorexia, and contain dash of photo-shop. Yummy.
Have you ever noticed that in every book that claims to be realistic, the girl still gets the guy? Have you also happened to notice that in real life, that accomplishment is quite rare? I'm a bookworm, a once daydreamer/ hopeless romantic, and now an observant realist, and I have taken note of these things. I recently read a book called "If I Have the Ugly Stepmother, Where's My Prince Charming?" and I thought, "Great. A realistic book about life as it is; where the plain girl actually doesn't have the perfect life and a book that's not shoving unrealistic dreams into your head." I jooke :) She got her Prince Charming in the end too. I won't lie, it was a fantastic ending and left me warm and fuzzy inside with the expectations that one day my life would achieve perfection as well. Then I got confused. "Wait... I thought this was supposed to be realistic? I mean great, yeah that works for some people but what about the majority of the population who don't have their lives in order, whose lives aren't swimming in perfection and who don't reach their 'Happily Ever After' at the ripe old age of 15?"
Everyone loves to believe in fairytales. I'd love to. But that's just not life. There are small fairytales scattered throughout our days but in a world of hate and suffering, there's no way for them to last. Just a thought.
I recently wrote a song about this exact topic. I'll post it later. It most definitely is NOT one of my greater works. But yeah:)
So I think my first blog-rant is going to have to be takin' a dig at society and all the princess-y crap it feeds girls today. Every little girl grows up reading princess stories, watching princess movies, being told that "If you only follow your heart," your life will turn out absolutely perfect, you'll eventually capture the heart of your Prince Charming and you'll never have to worry your pretty little head ever again. Beauty is what the world revolves around. Ironically, society is obsessed with "natural beauties" but no one appreciates natural beauty! Even the photos of models who are supposed to look "natural" are smothered in makeup, slow roasted with anorexia, and contain dash of photo-shop. Yummy.
Have you ever noticed that in every book that claims to be realistic, the girl still gets the guy? Have you also happened to notice that in real life, that accomplishment is quite rare? I'm a bookworm, a once daydreamer/ hopeless romantic, and now an observant realist, and I have taken note of these things. I recently read a book called "If I Have the Ugly Stepmother, Where's My Prince Charming?" and I thought, "Great. A realistic book about life as it is; where the plain girl actually doesn't have the perfect life and a book that's not shoving unrealistic dreams into your head." I jooke :) She got her Prince Charming in the end too. I won't lie, it was a fantastic ending and left me warm and fuzzy inside with the expectations that one day my life would achieve perfection as well. Then I got confused. "Wait... I thought this was supposed to be realistic? I mean great, yeah that works for some people but what about the majority of the population who don't have their lives in order, whose lives aren't swimming in perfection and who don't reach their 'Happily Ever After' at the ripe old age of 15?"
Everyone loves to believe in fairytales. I'd love to. But that's just not life. There are small fairytales scattered throughout our days but in a world of hate and suffering, there's no way for them to last. Just a thought.
I recently wrote a song about this exact topic. I'll post it later. It most definitely is NOT one of my greater works. But yeah:)
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